“Girls5Eva”'s Renée Elise Goldsberry Recalls Having 'Beautiful' Moment of Clarity a Decade After Her Miscarriage

The Tony award-winning actress opened up about experiencing a miscarriage while performing in Broadway's 'The Color Purple'

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Renée Elise Goldsberry

Renée Elise Goldsberry is reflecting on a difficult time in her life.

While appearing on The Jennifer Hudson Show with her Girls5Eva castmates, the actress, 53, spoke with host Jennifer Hudson about how the two both starred in The Color Purple, prompting Goldsberry to remember a tough experience she went through while performing.

“It was a beautiful thing for me, because The Color Purple, your production, was literally exactly 10 years from when I had done it on Broadway," Goldsberry tells Hudson. "And it was an emotional time for me, doing The Color Purple, because I had lost a baby doing The Color Purple.”

“And I remember thinking when I was receiving a Tony and thanking God for the opportunity to have been in that show and to have been in this show and to have these children," Goldsberry continues, referencing her 2016 award for best featured actress in a musical for Hamilton.

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"And I looked out and I saw the producers and all of you out in the audience in The Color Purple again, and it just felt like God was telling me, ‘Don’t you ever forget what I can give you in spite of what you think you’ve lost,' " she says.

Goldsberry and husband Alexis Johnson welcomed their son Benjamin in 2009. In 2014, the couple welcomed daughter Brielle via adoption.

In 2020, the star talked with PEOPLE about her journey to motherhood, sharing what being a mother means to her.

“My greatest wish for my children is that they fulfill their purpose,” said Goldsberry. “I know that all children, and in particular mine, are here for a reason.”

“My path to motherhood was challenging, to say the least, and I always feel like I’m living a Sliding Doors version of my life,” she shared with PEOPLE, saying she believed her children “getting here means they’re supposed to be here” before adding with a laugh, “I feel like my job is not to screw them up!”

She also shared that if she could do anything, she'd clone herself so she'd have extra hands when dealing with her two kids.

“I wish, mainly, that I could have a job and work all the time and also not have to leave my kids,” she said. “If there was a way to clone myself, and be at every parent-teacher meeting and be there to put my kids to bed every single night, and also star on Broadway, that’s what I would do.”

While parenting can be a lot, Goldsberry said the little moments with her kids make everything worth it.

“My kids make me laugh every single day — especially when they’re their most precocious,” Goldsberry said, laughing. “My son said to me the other day, ‘Why are you so dramatic?’ And I just thought, ‘Really? You know that word? And also, you’ve already noticed how dramatic I am?’ That just really made me laugh.”

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